So. Yes. Two Weeks ago I sat in my room and felt sadder than I have ever felt before. I can't believe it has already been two weeks. Looking back on these two weeks back into society, I think to myself, what have I done? Nothing nearly as exciting as cosmos.
I have gone into a complete panic mode about college. A few nights ago I couldn't sleep, so I started doing SAT math problems. haha. yeah...
So life has been all about summer work. I have been at home most of the time just working =(. blah
I have had a little social life here and there, lol, I have seen Wesley Chaing a few times (he lived in my suite at cosmos (cluster7)) and hung out with friends. I saw superbad today, which was extremely funny.
So about summer work... ugh...
I finished my book for AP Lit, "A Prayer For Owen Meany." 543 pages. And do you know what? This book is my all time favorite book now! It was soo good. At the end I got goosebumps. From a book! It was so intense. You need to read it!
Now I have to write a dialectical journal for it. It is taking forever!! I am trying my best though.
After ap lit summer work I have ap gov. Not looking forward to that. soo much stuff.
and on top of all of that I have college essays. and sat classes! HOW FUN!!! Well at least school starts in two weeks so I can worry about 5 ap classes! V_V *_*
AHHHHHH!!!
anyway. So yes. Time is flying by. I still cannot wait for the reunions to come. I might fly up to norcal on september 1st for a reunion. That would be soo fun. And then september 8th I get to go to the disney land reunion! yay
that's all for now!
-DB
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Sunday, August 12, 2007
One Week Later...
So it has been an entire week since I have been at Cosmos. Life without it is just not the same. I will admit that I feel a little less sad each day, but I still miss it beyond all imagine. Ever since I got back, every night I have had dreams about cosmos. That I was there again. Looking back to four months ago, I would have never imagined I would have loved the program this much. I knew that I would meet a lot of new people, but I never could have thought that we would have become such close friends and that I would have liked the classes so much. Life is full of surprises. All i am looking forward to right now is our reunions. I can't wait to see everyone again!
So my life back at home hasn't been amazing....
I am bombarded with summer work. It is so overwhelming to think about. I am just trying to do it little by little, but there is so much to do! =(.
I am reading this book called "A Prayer For Owen Meany." It is really sad and disturbing so far, but at least the plot is somewhat interesting (sorta). bleh.
Tomorrow I register for school V_V. It is too soon!!! It will never be the same as cosmos. They need to invent like a cosmos high school. Oh my gosh think about it. Like, everyone applies to the high school and it is a school just for smart kids who like math, science, and engineering! THAT IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA! I will make it eventually =P.
So I can't even begin to tell you how much Cosmos has made me look forward to college. It will be like being in cosmos, but for 4 years! Imagine that!
I need to get my summer work done ASAP! I predict senior year is going to fly by! And then hello college =)
-DB
PS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALBERT!!
So my life back at home hasn't been amazing....
I am bombarded with summer work. It is so overwhelming to think about. I am just trying to do it little by little, but there is so much to do! =(.
I am reading this book called "A Prayer For Owen Meany." It is really sad and disturbing so far, but at least the plot is somewhat interesting (sorta). bleh.
Tomorrow I register for school V_V. It is too soon!!! It will never be the same as cosmos. They need to invent like a cosmos high school. Oh my gosh think about it. Like, everyone applies to the high school and it is a school just for smart kids who like math, science, and engineering! THAT IS SUCH A GOOD IDEA! I will make it eventually =P.
So I can't even begin to tell you how much Cosmos has made me look forward to college. It will be like being in cosmos, but for 4 years! Imagine that!
I need to get my summer work done ASAP! I predict senior year is going to fly by! And then hello college =)
-DB
PS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALBERT!!
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
Yet Another Summer Day Without Cosmos. Wednesday August 8th
So. Sigh... Life is really dull and sad without cosmos. I need to stop staying up so late.
I woke up late, yet again. >.<. I then went to go take my mom to the eye doctor because she was getting her eyes dialated and I had to drive her home. The people at the place were really slow and unorganized, so I ended up just reading there for 3 hours. We got back at 4 and I left to go get a hair cut (my senior portrait is tomorrow).
We got dinner, then I was glued to facebook (and reading, of course ;). )
So the night was basically summer work again. Sigh... that was my day =(. Fun, right? I miss cosmos so much. I can't wait for the reunions.
I hope tomorrow is better than today.
I still love facebook. And miss Cosmos.
-DB
I woke up late, yet again. >.<. I then went to go take my mom to the eye doctor because she was getting her eyes dialated and I had to drive her home. The people at the place were really slow and unorganized, so I ended up just reading there for 3 hours. We got back at 4 and I left to go get a hair cut (my senior portrait is tomorrow).
We got dinner, then I was glued to facebook (and reading, of course ;). )
So the night was basically summer work again. Sigh... that was my day =(. Fun, right? I miss cosmos so much. I can't wait for the reunions.
I hope tomorrow is better than today.
I still love facebook. And miss Cosmos.
-DB
ahh it is late. Tuesday August 7th
I can't believe i have been home already for 3 days. Today was blehh. Nothing much happened.
I woke up really late, at like 11:30. I had to drive to irvine to meet with a college councelor person thingy that explains the college application process for colleges. After that I just went back home and did summer work >.<.
I have soo much to do, and i am still not sure what classes to take because I want to take AP comp sci but i dont have room for it :/.it is confusing, but i will figure it out. This summer homework is going to be killer. 5 ap classes *_*. help please!
I still miss cosmos like you wouldn't believe. Yesterday it got a lot better but when I woke up this morning I was really sad. I had a dream last night that we were all on this island and trapped there but it was all of us including the teachers and there was just a giant building castle with music playing inside. So i walked inside we were all at the dance. When I woke up I was so depressed... Facebook is helping soo much though. There is no way I could get through this without it.
Yay summer work.
OH, read your first blog entry! I read mine and it is such a weird feeling! It is really interesting though. You will see.
-DB
I woke up really late, at like 11:30. I had to drive to irvine to meet with a college councelor person thingy that explains the college application process for colleges. After that I just went back home and did summer work >.<.
I have soo much to do, and i am still not sure what classes to take because I want to take AP comp sci but i dont have room for it :/.it is confusing, but i will figure it out. This summer homework is going to be killer. 5 ap classes *_*. help please!
I still miss cosmos like you wouldn't believe. Yesterday it got a lot better but when I woke up this morning I was really sad. I had a dream last night that we were all on this island and trapped there but it was all of us including the teachers and there was just a giant building castle with music playing inside. So i walked inside we were all at the dance. When I woke up I was so depressed... Facebook is helping soo much though. There is no way I could get through this without it.
Yay summer work.
OH, read your first blog entry! I read mine and it is such a weird feeling! It is really interesting though. You will see.
-DB
Monday, August 6, 2007
A piece of cosmos returned! Monday August 6th
HOla! Today was a lot better (until the night). SOO exciting,
So I woke up 11 ish. My mom and I went to panera bread and then I went to a college prep thing that talked about the uc application process. it was.. interesting? I guess. So anyway, the thing was in Irvine, and then I get a call. It was wesley chiang! my friend from cosmos on my suite! He is like, hey want to go play tennis? I AM LIKE, YES!!!!!!!!
SO I WENT TO HIS HOUSE! it was only 15 minutes away! It was so amazing to see him!
When i was walking up to his house, it felt like a scene in a movie. It reminded me of the show Lost, like we met all these people alone, but now it is like I am seeing him in real life. In a different reality. It is hard to explain the feeling, but bare with me. So I went to his house and we went off to play tennis. We both sucked horribly because we havent played in like 3 months but it was fun to play with him. After tennis we went to go get boba! yum! Afta... we went to buy a frisby (random?) and we went to his high school and threw it around. After that we got dinner at this japanese place just like shogun but a different name i cant pronounce. So finally I dropped him off at his house and we said our goodbyes.. for now. It is so great that he lives so close to me! We talked about going to disney land next week with other people from cosmos! fun!
So now this is the (until the night) part. argg. This was bad. So my cell phone battery, BAM, dead. No life what so ever. I need to get home from irvine. uh oh, speghetti ohs. I had no idea. I wanted to take the toll road, but I got sooo lost trying to get there. I had to find jamboree and then macarthur and ksahg;la. Finally I found Irvine Center Drive and i was like YES! VICTORY! It is this side road that is a reallyyyy long side road, but it will eventually go right to my house. So I take it with a ton of traffic >=(. Finally I get home, and that was bad. My parents were really worried about me that I was gone for so long without calling. I would be mad at me too, but I was so scared in that situation that I thought the best thing to do would be to get home as fast as I could instead of asking a stranger to borrow change for a pay phone or to borrow someone's cell phone.
Even though the night wasn't the best I have had, the day was just what I needed to help me move on a little from Cosmos. I am still horribly depressed, but knowing that some of my friends are close by helps a lot.
I am freaking out about summer homework. I need to get started. It is going to be so hard to sit down and do it. I have to though. argg.
I still miss cosmos =(. I love facebook.
-DB
So I woke up 11 ish. My mom and I went to panera bread and then I went to a college prep thing that talked about the uc application process. it was.. interesting? I guess. So anyway, the thing was in Irvine, and then I get a call. It was wesley chiang! my friend from cosmos on my suite! He is like, hey want to go play tennis? I AM LIKE, YES!!!!!!!!
SO I WENT TO HIS HOUSE! it was only 15 minutes away! It was so amazing to see him!
When i was walking up to his house, it felt like a scene in a movie. It reminded me of the show Lost, like we met all these people alone, but now it is like I am seeing him in real life. In a different reality. It is hard to explain the feeling, but bare with me. So I went to his house and we went off to play tennis. We both sucked horribly because we havent played in like 3 months but it was fun to play with him. After tennis we went to go get boba! yum! Afta... we went to buy a frisby (random?) and we went to his high school and threw it around. After that we got dinner at this japanese place just like shogun but a different name i cant pronounce. So finally I dropped him off at his house and we said our goodbyes.. for now. It is so great that he lives so close to me! We talked about going to disney land next week with other people from cosmos! fun!
So now this is the (until the night) part. argg. This was bad. So my cell phone battery, BAM, dead. No life what so ever. I need to get home from irvine. uh oh, speghetti ohs. I had no idea. I wanted to take the toll road, but I got sooo lost trying to get there. I had to find jamboree and then macarthur and ksahg;la. Finally I found Irvine Center Drive and i was like YES! VICTORY! It is this side road that is a reallyyyy long side road, but it will eventually go right to my house. So I take it with a ton of traffic >=(. Finally I get home, and that was bad. My parents were really worried about me that I was gone for so long without calling. I would be mad at me too, but I was so scared in that situation that I thought the best thing to do would be to get home as fast as I could instead of asking a stranger to borrow change for a pay phone or to borrow someone's cell phone.
Even though the night wasn't the best I have had, the day was just what I needed to help me move on a little from Cosmos. I am still horribly depressed, but knowing that some of my friends are close by helps a lot.
I am freaking out about summer homework. I need to get started. It is going to be so hard to sit down and do it. I have to though. argg.
I still miss cosmos =(. I love facebook.
-DB
Sunday, August 5, 2007
A day back into the reality of life. Sunday August 5th
Well, here I am. I am at my computer. In my room. If I turn around, Luis won't be there. If I listen carefully, I won't hear the voice of one of my suitemates. If I open my door, I won't see a couch with people playing cards on it. It is past 11 and my lights are on. I am waiting... waiting for the sound of someone to scream LIGHTS OUT!
Bam. I am back home.
I woke up extremelty late today. I could not fall asleep last night. I was just thinking of all of my memories I had, and could not dare sleep. It was a sad night. The saddest night of my life.
So I woke up at one. The latest I have woken up in a LONG time. I went to my sister, who made me blueberry pancakes. I have to tell you, these pancakes are 2^76th times better than cafe ventanas. SOOO good.
After breakfast (or lunch, I guess?) I went to go on facebook and it said, "Sorry, your site is undergoing maintence. It will be up in a few hours. We appologize for any inconvenience." AGHHHHH. I was so mad! I wanted to go on so badly. I decided to just wait it out. I hung out with my family and we decided to go see Underdog. I was thinking, ok this is going to be really stupid, but wow. THIS MOVIE WAS HILARIOUS! It was actually realllyyy funny. My sister and I were dying at the cheesy lines and how incredibly hilarious the idea was (we are dog people). What was REALLY cool is that I knew how they made the movie from COSMOS! They just put the dog infront of the blue screen and hung him up at a harness as they blew wind in his face (animal cruelty). I am going to try it with my dog tomorrow. I will put the result on youtube.
After the movie I called my friend as we hung out for a while. I haven't seen him since before COSMOS.
Listen to this: So we are thinking where to eat dinner. And so he says to me, do you feel like sushi or terriyaki chicken? I reply, uh, sure. and he says:
Oh ok, then I know a really good place. It is called SHOGUN! I AM LIKE, WHAT?! REALLY?! SERIOUSLY?! THERE IS A SHOGUN HERE?!
AND SO WE GO TO SHOGUN! A REAL SHOGUN! HOW COOL IS THAT?! It was an actual restaraunt though but it is the same shogun with the logo and everything. How weird is that though that out of all the places, he says shogun! and there is a shogun by me! freeky!
So then he came over and we watched stuff. he tried to get me to play world of warcraft. haha. he got addicted while i was away.
ANYWAY. Now I am alone again. Everyone is sleeping. I hate it when my mind is not being distracted; all i think about is how much I miss cosmos. I finally got on facebook and saw that they are going to try to have a reunion! YES! you have no idea how excited I am for that. It made my day.
I need to get started on my ap summer work =(. Argg. I don't want to!!! I need to though.
I have nothing to look forward to tomorrow except that it is one day closer to the reunion. I miss everyone so much.
-DB
Bam. I am back home.
I woke up extremelty late today. I could not fall asleep last night. I was just thinking of all of my memories I had, and could not dare sleep. It was a sad night. The saddest night of my life.
So I woke up at one. The latest I have woken up in a LONG time. I went to my sister, who made me blueberry pancakes. I have to tell you, these pancakes are 2^76th times better than cafe ventanas. SOOO good.
After breakfast (or lunch, I guess?) I went to go on facebook and it said, "Sorry, your site is undergoing maintence. It will be up in a few hours. We appologize for any inconvenience." AGHHHHH. I was so mad! I wanted to go on so badly. I decided to just wait it out. I hung out with my family and we decided to go see Underdog. I was thinking, ok this is going to be really stupid, but wow. THIS MOVIE WAS HILARIOUS! It was actually realllyyy funny. My sister and I were dying at the cheesy lines and how incredibly hilarious the idea was (we are dog people). What was REALLY cool is that I knew how they made the movie from COSMOS! They just put the dog infront of the blue screen and hung him up at a harness as they blew wind in his face (animal cruelty). I am going to try it with my dog tomorrow. I will put the result on youtube.
After the movie I called my friend as we hung out for a while. I haven't seen him since before COSMOS.
Listen to this: So we are thinking where to eat dinner. And so he says to me, do you feel like sushi or terriyaki chicken? I reply, uh, sure. and he says:
Oh ok, then I know a really good place. It is called SHOGUN! I AM LIKE, WHAT?! REALLY?! SERIOUSLY?! THERE IS A SHOGUN HERE?!
AND SO WE GO TO SHOGUN! A REAL SHOGUN! HOW COOL IS THAT?! It was an actual restaraunt though but it is the same shogun with the logo and everything. How weird is that though that out of all the places, he says shogun! and there is a shogun by me! freeky!
So then he came over and we watched stuff. he tried to get me to play world of warcraft. haha. he got addicted while i was away.
ANYWAY. Now I am alone again. Everyone is sleeping. I hate it when my mind is not being distracted; all i think about is how much I miss cosmos. I finally got on facebook and saw that they are going to try to have a reunion! YES! you have no idea how excited I am for that. It made my day.
I need to get started on my ap summer work =(. Argg. I don't want to!!! I need to though.
I have nothing to look forward to tomorrow except that it is one day closer to the reunion. I miss everyone so much.
-DB
Saturday, August 4, 2007
Tears Of Sadness. Saturday. August 4th. 2007. Poof.
I have tried to write this blog post 5 times now. I keep choking up everytime I write it. cosmos is over.
Today I woke up at 7. five hours of sleep. I got up and continued packing my things. Went to cafe ventanas for the very last time to get breakfast. I got the daily vegetarian sausage and french toast with OJ =D. I went back to the room after and finished up packing. It was a terrible feeling. My mom and sister arrived and we started bring things to the car. It did not hit me yet that cosmos was over. Once my room was cleared I went to go talk to all of my friends and have them sign my autograph book. Then the ceremony began. We took our seats and listened to the guest speakers who made COSMOS possible. Then we recieved our certificates and applauded as each person went up. At the end, we all threw our lanyards up in the air.
Then it hit me. BAM. pow. Cosmos is over. Uh oh.
I had to say goodbye to my friends. The people I grew so close to over the past month, now torn away. I hugged goodbye all the people that weren't going to be at the video showing. As soon as I hugged the last person, I broke down into tears. I cried constantly for 5 minutes uncontrollably. I momentarily stopped once we got to the video showing. The parents seemed to really enjoy our videos, and I was really pleased. I got really choked up after we watched the final slideshow, and then when I went to hug Teressa and saw the tears in her eyes, I lost it. I broke down again and we cried while hugging. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Actually, it was THE hardest thing I have ever had to do. Barely able to speak, I hugged everyone goodbye. It was really hard to say goodbye to the professors. The thought of not going to one of their classes again made things a lot harder on me. I was so appreciative of the experience I had in their class, and it all had to end right there. I thanked all of them and the TAs for helping me so much throughout the month. As soon as we got into the car I completely broke down to the point where I was unable to talk. Cosmos was the best thing to happen in my life. ugh, i am crying right now. Every person there made it so wonderful and I will miss every single one.
Getting home was a confusing and miserable experience. I was in total shock that I was not in cosmos anymore and I was back home now. I couldnt handle it. Walking in and seeing my room, knowing that I no longer have a roommate to share stories with or talk to, knowing that I dont have suite mates to have huge water fights with or talk about our experiences, knowing that I can't go out the window and see an amazing activity to do. ugh, this blog is really difficult to write.
Not knowing what to do, I tried to calm myself down by watching tv. Everything on reminded me of cosmos and made me sadder. Eventually my sister took me to a movie to cheer me up. I now pronounce you chuck and larry. It was actually really funny and cheered me up a bit. I was excited I got to go on facebook and talk to albert. We both felt the same sadness.
I transfered all of my pictures onto my computer. Want to guess how many I had? 898 PICTURES! It took so long to transfer them over. I am going to try to put them on facebook.
So that is it. I am home. I am away from UCSD until I go to college. My dream world of happiness has been taken away. I am so appreciative though that I was able to spend four weeks there and have such a wonderful opportunity in my life. I will always have these memories with me and remember every single person there.
From the Good times to the bad times,
from the water fights, to dressing up like an idiot for gotcha
from playing cards, to staying up until 4 working on projects
from being with the greatest friends, to walking 20 minutes in the burning sun
I will always remember.
Thank You.
-Derek Bloom
I will continue blogging outside of cosmos.
Also, I uploaded our final project onto YouTube. Here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89bekZl7Rk4
Today I woke up at 7. five hours of sleep. I got up and continued packing my things. Went to cafe ventanas for the very last time to get breakfast. I got the daily vegetarian sausage and french toast with OJ =D. I went back to the room after and finished up packing. It was a terrible feeling. My mom and sister arrived and we started bring things to the car. It did not hit me yet that cosmos was over. Once my room was cleared I went to go talk to all of my friends and have them sign my autograph book. Then the ceremony began. We took our seats and listened to the guest speakers who made COSMOS possible. Then we recieved our certificates and applauded as each person went up. At the end, we all threw our lanyards up in the air.
Then it hit me. BAM. pow. Cosmos is over. Uh oh.
I had to say goodbye to my friends. The people I grew so close to over the past month, now torn away. I hugged goodbye all the people that weren't going to be at the video showing. As soon as I hugged the last person, I broke down into tears. I cried constantly for 5 minutes uncontrollably. I momentarily stopped once we got to the video showing. The parents seemed to really enjoy our videos, and I was really pleased. I got really choked up after we watched the final slideshow, and then when I went to hug Teressa and saw the tears in her eyes, I lost it. I broke down again and we cried while hugging. It was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Actually, it was THE hardest thing I have ever had to do. Barely able to speak, I hugged everyone goodbye. It was really hard to say goodbye to the professors. The thought of not going to one of their classes again made things a lot harder on me. I was so appreciative of the experience I had in their class, and it all had to end right there. I thanked all of them and the TAs for helping me so much throughout the month. As soon as we got into the car I completely broke down to the point where I was unable to talk. Cosmos was the best thing to happen in my life. ugh, i am crying right now. Every person there made it so wonderful and I will miss every single one.
Getting home was a confusing and miserable experience. I was in total shock that I was not in cosmos anymore and I was back home now. I couldnt handle it. Walking in and seeing my room, knowing that I no longer have a roommate to share stories with or talk to, knowing that I dont have suite mates to have huge water fights with or talk about our experiences, knowing that I can't go out the window and see an amazing activity to do. ugh, this blog is really difficult to write.
Not knowing what to do, I tried to calm myself down by watching tv. Everything on reminded me of cosmos and made me sadder. Eventually my sister took me to a movie to cheer me up. I now pronounce you chuck and larry. It was actually really funny and cheered me up a bit. I was excited I got to go on facebook and talk to albert. We both felt the same sadness.
I transfered all of my pictures onto my computer. Want to guess how many I had? 898 PICTURES! It took so long to transfer them over. I am going to try to put them on facebook.
So that is it. I am home. I am away from UCSD until I go to college. My dream world of happiness has been taken away. I am so appreciative though that I was able to spend four weeks there and have such a wonderful opportunity in my life. I will always have these memories with me and remember every single person there.
From the Good times to the bad times,
from the water fights, to dressing up like an idiot for gotcha
from playing cards, to staying up until 4 working on projects
from being with the greatest friends, to walking 20 minutes in the burning sun
I will always remember.
Thank You.
-Derek Bloom
I will continue blogging outside of cosmos.
Also, I uploaded our final project onto YouTube. Here is the link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=89bekZl7Rk4
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